January 2009
i'm doing things that i don't do, for you.
arizona was amazing. i got to see my favorite band twice, while i was there. i dont know if they know, but i love them. i dont know how to say it without sounding stupid. i haven’t done this for any other band. at the end of the night, the only reason im not happy is because its over.
“im in love with the perfect stranger.”
– hello hollywood
December 2008
from LA lights to Arizona skies
so on Friday i got to see The Summer Set. they were playing with The Maine, The Cab, This Century, Hello Hollywood, and This Season’s Love. we missed Hello Hollywood though because the venue sucks ball sachs. anyways .. singer saw me and said hi! i felt special. i saw The Cab for the 7th time and i saw The Summer Set or the 7th time. i talked to everyone in The Summer Set except for Brian...
merry christmas baby
i’m late but i’m in arizona so i didn’t get to blog! hope everyone had a great holiday.
“keeping me hopeless til i wake tomorrow.”
– the cab
merry christmas.
happy holidays! leaving for arizona tomorrow morning. a fan club? psh. i was in their fanclub before you had to pay to be in it.
i wont be alone, ive got love on my side.
yesterday was great. though the rain made me go crazy. i was soaked. Saturday was amazing. “this is your time. do whatever you want.” danae and i ran into the pit and got practically all the way up front because everyone was going insane and people were on stage. everyone was having a ball! seeing Alex Deleon was pretty cool too. i was like :OOOo ALEXXXXXX! and he was like HEY and gave...
computer virus/spyware/death.
i dont know what to do ): i spent hours trying to fix it. its out of my hands. i emailed my brother in fear of being scolded. he’s going to scold me anyway. it wasn’t my fault. :/ so ill just give you the heads up on what is going to be going on for the next few days.
sunday - fall out boy in San Francisco monday - laundry! and lots of it. tuesday - packing.packing.packing. wednesday...
“can’t keep my monsters out of me.”
– the summer set
arizona.
iamjason: GO TO ARIZONA
iamjason: your parents will understand eventually
“shut up about it. no one can bring you down.”
– lights
college.
i just got accepted into Arizona State University.
dont get your hopes up.
i sure did and i was let down. you dont know how excited i was for The Summer Set to be on DJ Rossstar. after months of requesting, they were finally going to be on the show. i was very excited. i was very upset. you should have seen my face on stickam. sigh. ill see them in one week.
“cause when you reach the stars, you’ve made it.”
– valencia
“but i’ve got to get a move on with my life.”
– fergie.
It's personal, myself and I.
I was thinking about posting my personal statement, I wrote in hopes of using it for some college scholarships, or perhaps applications if I find any more to apply at. Could use some critiquing. But I can’t help but feel a little embarassed because .. Idk. I really wish I was good at writing, or knew exactly what I wanted to do. It’d help.
God.
amanda dangerous: http://i30.tinypic.com/10n6ooj.jpg
amanda dangerous: is that god
travis haha sure: no
adore not war: thats a hot dog
travis haha sure: that is a hotdog
jason dean.
iamjason: u kidz
travis haha sure: wat
iamjason: are silly thats all
“take me back to the sleepless nights and the stupid fights. you know, it never...”
– the maine.
“i think we’ll make it out okay.”
– we the kings
“lets live it up like its our last, cause theres no room for ‘i wish i...”
– the audition
this is depressing.
what am i talking about? my life, of course. writing my personal statement. when i have aboslutely no idea what i really want or what i want to do. nobody can help me. this is difficult. and when it comes to having to ask for a letter of recommendation? i dont know who to go to. this bothers me. this is hard. i should have started way before i did. to those younger than me, start planning for...
& baby, you can't fire me.
cause i quit, right nowww.
“and you bet she took your word.”
– the maine
“be happy.”
– miley cyrus
“with everything you throw me way. i know its hard to say but its a crying shame,...”
– nevershoutnever!
48 states can't stop me
:)
heres to the kids
Here’s to the kids. Here’s to the kids who would rather spend their night with a bottle of coke and Patrick or Sonny playing on their headphones than go to some vomit-stained high school party. Here’s to the kids whose 11:11 wish was wasted on the one person who will never be there for them. Here’s to the kids whose idea of a good night is sitting on the hood of a car, watching the stars. Here’s...
“we both guessed i’m getting my life rearranged, and youre god damn right...”
– valencia
ive got troubled thoughts and a self-esteem to...
dammit. i wish i could. believe me, if i could i would. i would. i wish i had something to say. well the show yesterday was fun! seeing jason for the first time!! playing with playdoh. seeing danger radio for the fourth time. they were great. where’d marvin go? :/ big hugs! “sorry, i dont have any money.” well .. not much on my mind right now. i wanna get this homework done....
“you can only blame your problems on the world for so long, before it all becomes...”
– fall out boy
don't let the doctor in, i wanna blow off steam.
its pathetic how happy you could be if you let yourself. if you keep putting yourself down, of course you’re going to feel like shit. that’s what makes me look down upon you. if you don’t believe in yourself, who will? honestly. you can’t even go a day without complaining. just be fucking happy. the universe tends to unfold as it should. shut up and stop trying to make...
Linden - Attached, I’ve been addicted to...
last year's wishes are this year's apologies.
i made a list of all the shows i went to this year. holy, i went to a lot. i am not 100% if those are ALL the dates i went to. i feel like im missing one or two? January: None February: 13 - Cobra Starship, Metro Station, We The Kings, The Cab (San Francisco) March: 26 - All Time Low, The Rocket Summer, The Matches, Sonny Moore, Forever The Sickest Kids (San Francisco) 30 - A Cursive Memory, Metro...
“if you think im so terrible, then you are not aware. see, i am better this way.”
– brighten
she's not alone, she's not alone & never will be.
just woke up. tired as hell. cold. nothing to do, really today. my mom wants me to run some errands for her. im lazy. i need to go buy my senior project book. East of Eden? i think its a big book. im gonna die, arent i. sigh. i just need to get this senior shit DONE WITH. ho ho hopefully ..
gnarly
stealthy taylor: and some gnarly girl is trying to get on the word alive's keyboardist
travis haha sure: omg
adore not war: gnarly
travis haha sure: lol
amanda dangerous: is he going for it
stealthy taylor: no he isn't in to her
travis haha sure: I THOUGHT YOU MEANT
travis haha sure: SHE WAS TRYING TO GET ON
travis haha sure: A LITERAL KEYBOARD
adore not war: OH
adore not war: LOL
travis haha sure: omg i cant stop laughing h.o
adore not war: could you imagine some chick climbing on his keyboard
nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy
so this week .. was supposed to be one of the best weeks of my life. ): you know, seeing my favorite band next week? cancelled. im going to the artist vs poet, danger radio, the morning of, my american heart show though (: but like, i would drop that all for the summer set, anarbor, brighten tour that was rumored :/ i would have went to all the norcal shows. i was really looking forward to it. so...
“all i got was this broken heart, and thats it.”
– the maine
“as pages fall, my heart falls too.”
– a rocket to the moon
and i'm a million different people
one month ago. 11/4. two months ago 10/4. those were really good days. real good memories. real good things happened. i miss it so much. especially october 4th for reasons, probably only myself would understand. november 4th, not only did we get a new president, someone made my day. haha, someone actually thought/cared about me. even though their efforts failed miserably and i got ill. ill never...
“the only thing i wanted was with you.”
– a rocket to the moon
new layout?
i tried to fix up my tumblr a little bit. i got bored. i wish i had some creative ideas! i’m tired. ready for a nap. ill blog later.
lets sleep in forever, cause we can
omg he wrote a song about her. WHY DOESNT ANYONE WRITE A SONG ABOUT ME.
shes got a way of making things okay.
i could use some good news.